My pen filled the page with black words of anxiety. Sometimes it's good to write it all out. I let the heaviness leave my soul as my heart pours out, line after line. I feel rather like a child, pestering her Father with questions.
"Daddy, what about the money?"
"Daddy, how is this supposed to work?"
"Daddy, when will I be ready?"
"Daddy, where are we heading?"
"Daddy, Daddy, Daddy..."
In reply He just says, "Trust Me. I will take care of you."
He asks me to trust Him, and that is all the explanation that comes. I often wonder why I have been led to this place. I am compelled to give more than ever when I have less than ever. My only income is from my photography, and it's just not a whole lot right now. I'd be more than willing to find another job, but He says stay. It doesn't make much sense. Yet, He promises to provide so that His work may be done. He loves the cheerful giver. Though my future is uncertain, I have a hope that endures. I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I know I am being prepared for something.
So I can do nothing else but open my hands and let go of all I have. Trust - that's all I'm holding onto.
48 comments:
Trust ... such a powerful word - reliance on the integrity, strength, ability and surety of a person or thing. Having a confident expectation. Love it :)
Lovely to have you link up and inspire us with your beautiful heart.
Beautiful, beautiful photos! And beautiful words to accompany them :)
awe.. lady. so beautiful!!
the pictures are A-mazing!
Beautifully written. And can I ever relate. Times of waiting are so challenging and so exciting all at once. I love the opportunity for trust that they present us with. God is so good and will reveal all in His perfect timing if we but trust. I'm so glad you wrote this; I needed to read it today! Thanks girl!
Those pictures are stunning! I admire your photography so, so much! And beautiful words, as well. Trusting Him is the only way I can ever find peace. :)
Cute pics lady! God always provides :) and He always gives strength in times when you need it to get you through :)
Beautiful! Such a good message girl!
lovely, trust is all you can do.
Pretty pixs!
gorgeous photos!
such a beautiful post! i have so many questions for God too... i need to simply trust His perfect will & timing! everything revolves around that!
ps. those photos are so stunning! :)
I love this. Beautiful words. And those pictures are amazing! You are gorgeous!
I love those photos, they are unreal
<3 your pictures...
My mom always tells me....more like reminds me...
When you walk in God's path...he takes care of you...
I guess that means to trust him...:-)
the thing that seems the simplest are in fact the toughest when we actually have to live it out, but you are so wise to see that this is the root of it all, our lack of trust. I mean it is the first thing we are called to do. loved your post girl...
You are GORGEOUS! And I took some photos like these of me not too long ago! Love!
I know things will work out/get easier for you! I just hope sooner than later. You already know things will (:
I feel where you're at. The place where you don't know what to do, where to go, and why He's telling you to just truth Him; it's so hard. I love the last line of the last paragraph; I try to hold true to that as well (:
and plus, you are completely gorgeous. that is all. <3
I struggle with giving God my complete trust. I like to have control of things in my life. This sounds like a time in your life that God is using to strengthen you :)
1. you are gorgeous
2. you rock that lipstick better than most people could dream to
3. your faith is beautiful and your questions are so vital to your relationship with Christ. We need to be talking with Him!
4. God will always take care.
5. Praying for you sweet girl!
This is such a beautiful post girl! Trusting is often hard to do, but such a vital lesson that we much embrace and strive off of.
And right there, lovely, is where He'll use you.
Beautiful photos and beautiful thoughts. I'm there too...not with photography, but with my writing. Thanks for this, it spoke to my heart.
Very beautiful! A powerful word and important lesson to learn! ♥
beautifully written.
love your gorgeous blog & love the way you write down your thoughts!
happy tuesday!
beautiful thoughts, and you expressed your heart so well here. i love that you are staying. i love the quote "don't stay until God says go-Go until God says stay." and if God has told you, whispered to you, to stay here in this place, then it is sacred and holy and you will grow from being within it. praying for you and thinking of you this week:)
you are in such a difficult but beautiful place. I feel like I'm constantly learning from this journey that you are on. Thanks so much for sharing your heart here. I think God has done some amazing things so far! Keep trusting!
I linked to this post on my sisters blog: http://notesshewrote.blogspot.com/2011/11/my-favorite-things.html
I hope that you don't mind! I just thought everything you've said here and the pictures are so beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this :)
Love, Lulu
so true! here is my go to scripture when I feel fear or anxiety : 2 timothy 1:7
I can completely relate to the sesson you are in!
It's true. I often have to remind myself that if everything made sense, it wouldn't require faith.
A lesson that he is always teaching me! " JUST TRUST ME!" And he always comes through : )
Amen. Thank you so much for sharing :) xx
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love those photos! and love that you found me and live so close!!! what a small world! so, some questions for you: what's your favorite place close by to visit? (my hubs and i are always looking for a new adventure) where are the best places to shop? (from the looks of it, your clothes are adorable and cute fashion in bama doesn't seem easy to come by) did you take photography classes or teach yourself? (your photos are beautiful and i'm happy to know there is a talented photographer so close by, do you have a photo website?)
amen!! often times it's those seasons like you describe that end up being the most beautiful seasons in our hearts!
hi...nice share...regards from indonesia...
Your blog is so beautiful! And your words are just as vibrant. Trust is a tricky thing, but trusting in Him is never difficult :)
Your blog is wonderful. I love that you say what He is calling you to doesn't make much sense. Boy do I understand what you mean! Keep persevering, girl!
Thanks for your lovely comment about my footstool! I can totally understand your dilemma, because I'm in the same boat. Trust is so hard sometimes!
Man. Trust is one of the hardest things but God is sovereign. Even when we can't remember anything else about God, we have to remember to trust Him!
just found your blog and it is beautiful...and so are you and so is your heart! I can relate as well...God has met our every. need., and has made a way every. time. Even with little to no income, even when He has told is to stay put or told us to go. He is so good. So glad I found you new friend! :) blessings to you today!
This is the most uplifting post! Thank you SO much for sharing it with me! You are positively beautiful!!!
Beautiful Post and I love those pictures!!
Digger ~xoxo~
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To my horror, I realized I haven't commented on here in um like forever even though I still blog stalk you and follow your lovely posts and beautiful photography ((which if I haven't said recently––stunning!)) you are so talented I hope you know that!
And so I just had to remedy this lack by posting now!--I know how hard it is to stay still and hear those two terrifying words...Trust Me. So simple and yet so difficult. I'm encouraged by your commitment to do just that. Not run ahead. Or find another way around. But just be. Right where you're at until he says move. That's the best place to be. In the middle of His perfect will for you. Here's hoping I can do the same thing! Thanks for the reminder :)
Jeanine
I loved this spoke...I am in a similar place! Your heart, your photos and your words are so beautiful!
100000% beautiful on so many levels. wow. you wrote my heart out :)
Is it amazing that we can daily come boldly before the throne to receive grace that is sufficient for every moment? Thanks for sharing so honestly. Truly, He is faithful and all things work for good!
Girl your eyes are a photographers dream ~ dream I say! :)
Even at the old age of 32 trust can be a hard & scary thing even when you know in your heart you serve a God who wants what's best for you ~ but think what an AWESOME ministry you've been given through this little ol' blog! Bless you sweet girlie! :)
I LOVE those photos of you. And I love this post.
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